Here are a few conversations I've had recently:
Officer: "Hi, where are you off to in such a hurry?"
Officer: not a believable look on his face- "most women say they are in labor"
Me: nervous chuckle.
Officer: "Can I see your license and registration?" "What are you receiving chemo for?"
Me: "Colon cancer"
Officer: "give me a few minutes"
Me: "OMG! Really Becky!"
Officer: "You need to slow down so you can make
it to your appointments in one piece." "My grandpa
died really young from colon cancer so you
can thank him today for me letting you off"
Me: GULP "thank you grandpa"???
What a nice officer- he knew I needed a break!
Max: "Mom, do you need a hug?"
Me: "Yes, I do! How did you know?"
Max: "I just know because I know when my mom
needs hugs and because I'm your favorite."
Hug, Hug, Hug- I love that kid.
Me: "Whitney, you and I need to run and go to.........."
Whitney: "To what?"
Whitney: "mom, I hate it when you do this"
Me: "wait, it's coming to me"
Whitney: "you really forgot?"
Me: "yup, sure did"
Patient sitting next to me during Chemo: "How's your husband handling this?"
Me: "He seems to be doing well. He has his brave face on."
Patient: "Mine is really worried about me and makes me feel anxious at times."
Me: "sounds like you might need some ear plugs."
Patient: "Did you know that 75% of all marriages that involve cancer end in divorce."
If you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all. Right?
Last week was fun, I went to lunch with Dari and went with Yancey to go visit Chrissy and Matthew up at Primary's. Matthew is waiting for a heart and has been in the hospital for a long time. I think he's at like 120 days now :( He is the sweetest little boy EVER! I love that kid.
I had lunch plans with Mindy and Sam yesterday so my goal was to get up and get ready and go to lunch. I was able to eat and have some good conversations. We had fun! Too much fun because it wiped me out! I came home and flopped on the bed! I was beat! Those girls know how to PARTY! I do feel a lot better when I'm up and moving around and not laying in bed all day.
My mom was here yesterday and today- thank goodness!
Tonight I'm going to dinner with Suzy, Liz, Bonnie and Cindy. I'm sure I'll be ready to get out of the house by the time night rolls around. Suzy will take care of me if not. I joke with Brandon because I have been on so many dinner and lunch outings with friends and family lately. I feel so loved ;)
I have spent so much time trying to stay positive and upbeat that I don't think I have really allowed myself to be sad or ticked off with the truth. I have cancer. I have a disease that I did not plan for. Now I have to make arrangements in my life for this intruder. This has, and will, change my life.
You won't see me getting negative a whole lot during these blog entries. It's not the type of person I am... In order for me to stay upbeat I need to be upbeat. However, I do know that there is a reality to all of this and this is a place for me to vent and when I feel like venting then I will ;)
Thanks for reading everyone! I took another picture the day before round two. I think I still look the same :) If I don't then don't let me know- ha!
PS- get your colon checked!